Showing posts with label nervous. Show all posts
Showing posts with label nervous. Show all posts

Friday, January 6, 2012

Let's move on to 2012


This blog maybe becoming the only way that i can talk whatever I want to... or maybe not...idrk
Man always love to conclu what they have done in the year when it comes to the end, 
but when u conclu it, u have actually forgot lots of it
so last year, there's an application on Facebook,
rewinding all your status on the previous year!
It is kind of surprise!



Just to look back your message,
Last year you were still texting "I love you" with someone,
There's a big change within this year
so who are u gonna miss at the next new year Eve...
or u gonna have someone besides u that u still haven't meet this year?
a year is a short time, it's just a page in your life
but you in the time
no matter is sweet or pain,
time going by second and seconds
so a year can also be such a long time

How many years you have in your life?
once it has limit, you know that you can't have everything,
just when u know there're only about sixty thousands meals in your life,
you will not wanna waste it on an instant noodle
u always thinks that life is long
so u will have thoughts and don't wanna affect the life later on
all the time, I think I am too nervous
and i will always try my best to see someone,
to talk with someone
and i think, am I too aggressive, is it right? 
Last year, I found out that
I always think, if I don't do it now,
don't do it today, you may have the chance to do it again
maybe is not the right time anymore:
just like when u wanna comfort a friend
and if he recovers at the other day,
and u go to comfort him, aren't he gonna face that unhappy again?
even if u said it, he can't feel your care anymore.

What u wanna today, do it
and u afraid you didn't have the chance again,
that is the "Doomsday Syndrome"
although sometimes you just feel like you're being push by yourself
but when u look back, why not?
at least u didn't have the regret: Why I didn't do that?
Live with No Excuses, Love with no Regrets.

This year I have been not being honest, not speaking to you direct
someday when we were just talking
I have written on Facebook that I have never regret before
and I think he saw it
because for me,
the only regret is now.
This is the year of lost,
it is u, the only thing i have regret and lost

From the time I lost it last year,
whoever is it, when I feel the same again,
I just catching every single moment tight.
coz only that would make the way I have go through be meaningful,
and make the mistake I have taken be worthy
because of the me in 2010
make the me in 2011
and because of ant. in 2011
got the me in the brand new me in 2012
aren't u the same?
now I don't fucking care anymore....
not saying this from my heart maybe,
but at least I have others to distract me and I start to relax...
I told myself, he is just another jerk/asshole so chill...
I would still love to meet up but before that he has to go for a check
and yea actually I still care about him... just too much
coz I wanna Love with No Regrets~